i love my child. I also love my job. Omg.

Since I can remember, I believed that when I had children there would be nothing more rewarding than being a full-time, stay-at-home mommy. When we had Dylan, it was not financially feasable for me to quit my job. And I was devastated.

My mom kept Dylan and it was worth the 2+ hour daily commute to know that she was with family. When D turned one, Brandon and I were ready for me to pack up the career I'd been working on for the past 7 years and raise my baby girl.

I took 3 weeks off before I gave my official notice of resignation. I spent the days with Dylan. After the first week, I was miserable. And I was miserable that I was miserable. I love my little girl more than I can even put into words, but I came to the realization that I also love my career. And it was a hard realization to make.

A complete reevaluation of my goals, priorities, and long-term plans had to be made. And I had to come to terms that I wouldn't be happy just being "Dylan's mom" or "Brandon's wife". That alone would not fulfill me. It just isn't me.
So I work full time. I love what I do. And I love my family.
But I am also a full time mommy. And I'm so fortunate to love both of my jobs - raising my girl and building my career.

d's party

Dylan's birthday was Saturday. I was between jobs and had 2 weeks to completely devote to making this day magical for me...er, I mean her. I live for throwing themed parties and I used her beloved stuffed penguin, Bubba, as inspiration.

Bubba was given to her by her Uncle Jeremy & Aunt Mercedi. We named HER Penny at the time. Which stuck for about 2 weeks, until Dylan decided to call HIM Bubba. We are so progressive.

Anyway, here are some pics of the fun day!